A scarred heart

mood: hurt
position in my journey: two steps away from the line

Ever heard of the saying "if you don't have anything good to say, 
say none"... 

i'm happy for passing a really tough exam this day(stupid ana lab),but the only thing that really bothered me this day is when we had this theo thing(i really hate that prof)...to make a very long story short.. someone told me (or rather wrote) i'm a social climber(ouch!)... i really don't know the person, and i'm sure he/she don't know me too, because someone who knows me well enough knows i'm not that person. well, i really don't care, or at least that's what i'm trying to tell myself and put on a mask that always smile...but deep inside i have a scarred heart, a heart that is still crying, i can feel it's tears roll down. i hate it!.. some people think i 'm such a strong person but i'm not, i'm such a cry baby that i cry myself to sleep so many times. i just don't feel like crying infront of my blockmates. this stupid prof told us that we could be as harsh as we like in writing the negative things but to vulgar words. have he not taken consideration that some people might get hurt. he told us that we should accept it, but is it that easy?.. for me it's not. i'm not angry, i'm hurt...so much. good thing i have real friends beside me during that time... i remember a
friend of mine hugging me and telling me she wants to kick the ass of the person who wrote it..
but just hearing her say that, makes me warm inside.. it told me that somehow, there is still someone who believes in me and don't think i'm a social climber.. it made me feel that the person who wrote that was just sooo jealous that i have real friends unlike him or her.. maybe because he/she is such a backstabber, well, i think he/she is a backstabber, i thought i have a good relationship with each and everyone in our section, i was wrong!., this experience thought me not to be so trustful with the people that 
surrounds you, because one person in that crowd might backstab you..  i thought no one would have the guts to say that, it's below the belt.. good thing i have true friends.. i'm really thankful for having them.. clue: one of them loves yellow.. the other loves pink and hello kitty, the other one is aka J.Lo, hmmm.. 
i'll just mention three of them because if i name them all, the space won't cover it.. love yah guys!=)