mood: guilty
position in my journey:a step away from the starting line
at last, i finally got time to rest from all my school work. four days of nothing but rest and fun. well, at least that's what i did. after 3 days of doing nothing (except sleep, eat and play MS) on the fourth day i realized something, i was just browsing my friendster profile the all of the sudden i can't help but think about my highschool friends and i realize how much i miss them.don't get me wrong, i love hanging out with my college friends (CF), i mean what else could you ask for, they're smart, talented, easy-to-be-with, confident, always there for you. i admit, at times i forget how much fun i had with my HSF, all i think about is how much fun i'm having with my CF nowadays. i'd better say sorry for that. right now i feel so guilty and make me want to look for them and give them all a great big hug while treating them with some of my favorite frapp at starbucks. i think i owe them so much. they say true friends will always be there, but don't you think that time and distance
will loose the strings? i don't know, but maybe i'm just being paranoid and afraid to lose the first real friends i have, they are the one that accepted me for who i am, i don't have to make pretenses and i'm free to be myself, being as tactless i can be, be as a goofball and stupid person i am. they trust me and i trust them too. i truly miss them. right now, since (i think) everyone of us is so pre-occupied about our college lives all i can do is hope everything is working out for them.
~**sorry for all the wrong grammars and everything... i told you, i'm not really into this, i'm doing this to keep track of what my inner thoughts are and maybe, just maybe, it will leave clues to what i really want to be or to where my happiness is, because right now, i don't know myself anymore, so please bear with me...thank you**~
position in my journey:a step away from the starting line
at last, i finally got time to rest from all my school work. four days of nothing but rest and fun. well, at least that's what i did. after 3 days of doing nothing (except sleep, eat and play MS) on the fourth day i realized something, i was just browsing my friendster profile the all of the sudden i can't help but think about my highschool friends and i realize how much i miss them.don't get me wrong, i love hanging out with my college friends (CF), i mean what else could you ask for, they're smart, talented, easy-to-be-with, confident, always there for you. i admit, at times i forget how much fun i had with my HSF, all i think about is how much fun i'm having with my CF nowadays. i'd better say sorry for that. right now i feel so guilty and make me want to look for them and give them all a great big hug while treating them with some of my favorite frapp at starbucks. i think i owe them so much. they say true friends will always be there, but don't you think that time and distance
will loose the strings? i don't know, but maybe i'm just being paranoid and afraid to lose the first real friends i have, they are the one that accepted me for who i am, i don't have to make pretenses and i'm free to be myself, being as tactless i can be, be as a goofball and stupid person i am. they trust me and i trust them too. i truly miss them. right now, since (i think) everyone of us is so pre-occupied about our college lives all i can do is hope everything is working out for them.
~**sorry for all the wrong grammars and everything... i told you, i'm not really into this, i'm doing this to keep track of what my inner thoughts are and maybe, just maybe, it will leave clues to what i really want to be or to where my happiness is, because right now, i don't know myself anymore, so please bear with me...thank you**~
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