Hangovers ...

BLISS. just BLISS. C= ...

well not counting the hangover. =p ...

after jurassic years my highschool friends and i finally got together, yey!. although we're not complete (paw, tin and clarisse is not there, sad =C). Chie and Jopet, Riza, Anne, Ella, and Lyn graced me with their presence.

What we did:

Well, Ella went home already after a few minutes Riza arrived, aww, sad. but Lyn and Chie stayed for a while , we went to powerstation since Riza wants to play Dance Maniax, haha, ADDICT!, she's so great. anyhoo, after we played, Lyn, Chie and Jopet went home, which leaves me, Anne, and Riza. we went to Blueroom to have a drink, hehe ... let's just say we went a little to far. haha ... we finally parted around 8:30.

i know all of us are having a tight schedule, but we finally made time. Anne and Lyn from La Salle, Chie from SPUM, Riza from UP Diliman, haha and just imagine the distance between us, but thank God its never a barrier to our Friendship.
im soo happy to see them all again, it's been years. KADA14!, love you guys, hope to have another get together. muah!. stay safe and beautiful . C=

i miss my MOM. :(

i just read jhoi's blog and she had an entry bout her mom, it made me cry. *sigh*. (if you want to read it click this link: http://mysorryisfutile.blogspot.com)

isn't it amazing no matter how far they are they have a way of making their presence felt and makes you miss them even more.

i only see my mom once or twice every year, so just imagine so much i miss her. but i never missed her this much to the point that i can't help but let the tears fall. i'm really amazed how mother's know what's going through their children's heads without saying one word, they can feel every emotion we feel, and they always have a way of making us feel safe when we're afraid, loved when everyone turns their back on you, comforted when you feel so down,happier when you are happy already, and distance is never a barrier. now i believe that whenever the child is experiencing pain the mom experience it twice as heavy, they have so many unbelievable powers, ordinary things made extraordinary by their touch. i remember how it feel's like to be hugged by your mom when you come running to her crying because you have a wound and how she attends to it with so much care, even though she is scolding you for not being careful you know she's really worried and doesn't want you to get hurt, but she know somehow it will make you stronger. isn't it cool no matter what you eat you always say you love your mom's dishes, that she is such a great cook. mother's are, as i see it, are the strongest people that exist in this world. their protection is always the strongest, for those who have read harry potter already, would know that, Harry survived the killing curse because his MOM (Lily Potter) protected him. see, even in literature the author (J.K Rowling) wants to let everyone know and appreciate the power of a mother.

i miss her hugs,
i miss the way she kisses me on the cheeks,
i miss the way she says she loves me,
i miss shopping with her
i miss going to the grocery store with her
i miss the never ending pictorials
i miss the talks
i miss how she scolds me (no matter how ironic that is, i still miss it)
i miss the way she fixs my bed. she has this unusual touch, that when, she fixes it whenever i lie down the bedsheets smell so nice and the bed and pillows are so soft.
i miss the way she'll argue with anyone that insults me.
i miss the way she'll pick clothes for me to wear
i miss the way she calls me "Princess"
i miss the way she'll put make-up on me
i miss her dishes.
i miss her laugh
i miss all the cooking & laundry sessions, she even has a way to make chores appear not chores at all.

I MISS MY MOM.

I LOVE HER SO MUCH. <3

Tears and Laughter ...

AUGUST 31, 2007

such a horrible day, DEBACLE!

what happened??:

• grades are up!

*uh-oh* =s; for nutri i got a lousy 83 for my midterm exam, Gawd!, i was the lowest in class. arrgh!, sooo bad. i got such low grades in previous quizzes and long test, and my lab is just as bad, i dunno how to pull my grades up. to make things worst, my mom and grandmama would kill me, why?? well, both of them are food and nutrition graduates, they are expecting alot. *sigh*. next stop, stat. omg! got another lousy 81 for midterm exams and my over all midterm grade is 85. say bye bye to the circle, there is no way i'm gonna make it this sem, well if there is, i have to go through a needle's eye to make it. talk about tragedy.

• i got scolded!.

if you must hear the story here it goes, well, just to unwind and forget, at least momentarily, the debacle that had just happen. diane asked, me and rei if we would want to watch a movie, of course we do (actually i don't have money with me but rei is willing to lend me some), anyway, so, i started thinking of an excuse coz i'll be home late, so i texted my yaya and tito to inform them i'll be home late, around 8-8:30, so i told them that im at moa and going to buy something. but yaya texted me under the orders of my grandparents and told me: "bhala ka n sa buhay m, wag ka n umuwi!", (just to give you a little background, i've been going home a little late the past few days, so, mainly it's my fault) woah, so i told rei i need to go home coz they're gettin mad. i told him he can stay with diane if he wants to, i can take the cab, but diane told us that it's ok and she can handle herself. so rei and i went to the line to wait for a cab which by the way is so long. anyway, this leads us to my third rant...

• the cab driver is such a jerk!

when we finally got in a cab, the driver asked where we're headed, so i told them where, then he started complaining and telling us he can't take us there, with a reason so lame, just when i thought things aren't gonna get any worse, it did, so it delayed us even more. gawd, i just hated it, i started crying, (so yeah, im a cry baby, but i reached my limit, i can't take it anymore, i feel so depressed, afraid and mad, that's it), and when i started calming down (we already got a new cab, with a much nicer driver), i remembered that rei is suppose to ask my lola's permission so i could join him, reign, cswors, paz, diane and ana at greenbelt tomorrow night (sept.1, saturday), but looking at how things are i don't think he can do it.

*sigh*, gawd, these things really got in my nerves. it's a good thing rei covered up for me, when lola started asking why i need to go home late, he answered for me and told my lola that we're supposed to make a project for nutri. haha. anyway, after that when he got home he texted me and asked if i was alright, well, yeah i am, thanks to him, i owe him alot already. anyway, when i noticed that my new harry potter book already came, things made a big turn, yey. rei's been really nice and actually made me laugh, he texted me and told me: "cge pagudshot ka muna..may next time pa naman, bsta wag kang iiyak ha? intndhn nlng ntn cna lola.. Gusto m inuman nlng bukas lunch. haha joke, =)", this actually made me feel better, plus alot of people comforted me and told me its ok, you can catch up with your grades. both old and new blockmates. i love them sooo much, they all made me feel better and help put that smile. i'm soo thankful i got to meet them.

anyway, too bad i wasn't able to join the gang when they went to greenbelt. but all is well, positive thinking, there will be other times. :)

Not Well...

what's on my mind and what am i feeling:

~if i continue studying without unwinding, i'll go MAD and SUICIDAL. ='C...

~liked a caged bird.

~be a rebel.

~i want to go out with my blockmates and friends.

~have fun. (haven't got this for such a long time)

~forget everything that's happening.

~BE WITH MY MOM. ='C

~stop crying coz it's giving me an effin headache.

~stop being a spoiled brat.

~have a shopping therapy to make me feel better.

~dance like there's no tomorrow.

~party all night.

~have my camera fixed.

~laugh hard.

~improve my nutri and stat grade. =s

~RELAX.

~INDEPENDENT.


*im not me anymore* ...